This is a difficult post to write, need to figure out how to say what I need to say without causing a ripple effect.
I have always been a very private person and sometimes it can lead to issues among my friends and colleagues. If what you are feeling is NOT shared how can they know that something is bothering you? How can they know that something in your past is influencing you at this moment? How can they know what you are going through that might be affecting other aspects of your life? One way they can know is to ask ... and therein lies the heart of my post.
I have retired from Mercenaries for Hire, not gone inactive -- resigned, retired, quit how ever you might want to put it. When members decide to deride others and "take them to task" for not living up to THAT person's expectations in a very public way I have an issue with that. Most especially when the person is NOT "leader" of the group. There are many ways to communicate with others, from private messages, to in game whispers and meet-ups. Due to this very public backlash I retired from M4H.
No one -- except my very closest friends -- know what I am dealing with in my life at this moment. But I will say it is a MAJOR issue and has affected my attitude and mood. I have not wanted to deal with other peoples minor problems while I work on my own major issues. That is the long and short of it.
I enjoyed my time in M4H, but it was no longer where I needed to be. I need to help myself right now, and not so many others. I will still be around to help, just not in an official capacity.